Did I lose focus?

So ever since moving the ponies to their new barn and getting my new boy I find myself not going out to the barn every single day. I have been enjoying other things in life that I was unable to because I was always in a self care situation or running around getting grain, hay or feeding, cleaning stalls etc. So lately I have been feeling kind of guilty for not going out the 7 days a week that I used to. Now I go out about 4 to 5 times a week and somedays I ride and somedays I don't.

I feel as though maybe I have lost my focus or maybe need to set goals to get back on track...or do I? I have not been this content with thing in a while. Sure there are bad things that happen daily with work or one of the ponies being naughty, but overall life is good. I want to show but really don't have to show. So when I ride I work on different things with the girls but we really don't have a "direction". I know I want to just do the hunters with Lily and maybe do the Ark series with Pickles but other than that I really don't have the desire to show big like I did two years ago. I am really not sure why now....

I constantly question why this change has happened and maybe it is a good thing. Before my life was horses 24/7 and now my life is well my life. I have wonderful friends that I get to hang out with and go bowling and out to eat and on trips with. I don't fret or worry about the horses needing something because Michelle takes care of everything. I have focused more on work and growing in my career, but still I feel a twinge of guilt for not being at the barn ALL the time. Maybe it will pass with time and I truly will jut get to enjoy my horses as I have been. I guess my devotion 24/7 doesn't mean I don't love the big girls, it is just I found more to love outside of the barn.

Maybe once it warms up I will revert back to my old ways of being a barn brat, but for now I will be content with what I have :)