So after reading Becca's blog I decided maybe this is the blowing off steam that I need in life, because I have been so stressed lately that everyone hears the same story over and over so I won't make people listen but get it out there.
For the past 7 months I have bounced from barn to barn for one reason or another. First it was because I was part of a team that built a barn up from scratch and there were discrepancies on how it should be run (horse person vs. business person), the moved to a facility that was not quite big enough with zero turnout and a not so great riding arena, then I separated the girls and tried the two barns and I felt as though I was neglecting Pickles all the time and now I am moving yet again because the backyard barn I thought I loved is going to be run like business per the "barn manager". So after moving the girls countless times I begin to think its not the barns but me....
Am I that hard to deal with, and that unreasonable? I don't think so but maybe I'm wrong.
So here goes nothing! I am moving them farther than any other barn in one last ditch effort to find them a good fit. I know they will be taken care of regardless if I am there or not. And hopefully I won't be alone all the time as I have been with my last 3 barns. I just hope that these negative past experiences keep me expecting the worst and looking for something to go wrong. That hopefully this will be a new beginning and I can once again look forward to the barn and the people out there. I am drinking a big glass of optimism and pushing forward in hopes of success!
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